You guys,
My friend died unexpectedly last week. She was 37.
Every time I remember she’s dead my stomach drops.
I keep hearing her voice. Keep hearing her laugh. And I remember her smile when she talked about the type of old lady she wanted to be.
I hope she didn’t feel alone at the end. I hope she felt loved.
I held Sam and George a little tighter this week. And didn’t allow myself to stress about my never-ending list of things to do. There are always things to do. I am always going to feel busy.
But if you were to die tomorrow how would you spend today?
I would spend it with Sam and George. That’s it. I’d wrap them up and hold them close and love them as hard as I could.
It’s important to have goals and ambitions and fulfillment, but not at the expense of unhappiness. This was a good reminder to enjoy my list of things to do. And not race from one thing to the next. And call my friends more often.
Life is to be enjoyed. It really is! So go enjoy it.
Essay of the Week
Whenever Harry Potter gets mentioned my eyes light up and my obsessive fandom reveals itself.
But why do I love Harry Potter so much?
I tried to answer that question in this week’s short essay.
Everything Will Be Okay
We had our first family photos. Even though the photographer was at our house for less than an hour my entire day was spent in a high state of anxiety.
We needed him to be there for George’s “happy awake time” which is quite difficult to organize. It didn’t help that I messed up George’s ENTIRE SCHEDULE by rushing his morning feed.
Plus, I haven’t put on makeup since February and my mascara was clumping up and I was freaking out. Sam came into the bathroom and I asked, “How does it look?”
To which he responded, “Ummm, well...”
I huffed and dramatically threw the mascara down onto the counter.
Sam said, “I want to be honest and I want to be supportive... I feel like this is a no-win situation.”
Correct, Sam. It was a no-win situation.
My make-up was fine. George was a champ. All was well. Except for my blood pressure.
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Until next week,
Charlie
Charlie, I am deeply sorry for the loss of your friend. Every day is a treasure, but we often take it for granted.